I guess this really is the end of everything.

The good thing about today was that Darla made her first communion. She looked so beautiful, although thanks to the heat she got a good dose of heatstroke, but she's better now.

I can't wait to upload my vids on YouTube.

Also, Monday I'll hafta go to the doctor's for a health scare that I have.

And thanks to this, I'll be dropping out of school for good. I've already messed up this semester anyway, so missing the last week won't matter.

I might email Mr. Akers tomorrow night and tell him how messed up everything is and how I'm not coming back.

My flow got the best of me.

And here I was so looking forward to that play too. Oh well.

Guess I'll be putting around doing chores and homework...

So next week school is out.

And tomorrow afterschool I go to Nina's for my long weekend. Should be nice.

Plus I'm really looking forward to going to church afterschool too, haven't gone since Mom passed.

Since I'm going to our play I guess I'll leave a little note for Mr. Akers again. Hope he gets it. Also I plan to leave a note for that Virgen De Guadalupe candle that Mr. Davalos has in his office. Maybe Mr. Akers'll read that too, just outta curiosity...

God, I need to get back into my faith...

Well I was all set to go to class today, but while on the bus today I felt awful. I had a stomach pain I never recognized, and I had eaten a cup of noodles for breakfast, so I ran to 711 and had a bag of chips. Then I get on the bus, crowded; was shoved around a bit. Walked over to the nurses' office and asked politely to have my blood checked. It wasn't free. Five dollars upfront.

I hate feeling like this. I can't tell what the hell I have.

Also, I feel relieved this stupid semester is almost over.

I really hope God allows me to have Summer off; I could really use a break with all this shit I've been through. But then, if He doesn't, I'm fried.

So, tommorow should go well, at least; two of my classmates are performing a play. Maybe afterschool I can go to church and see what that does. Then when I get home, I get to spend the weekend at Nina's from tomorrow night! Should be fun.

Or at least that's how I feel.

The good thing is that Papa called me this morning, which was a nice treat as he's away. I miss him. He called about my check-up on Friday. I'm nervous. My Nina says I'm really showing signs of diabetes...

Damn, Ma, you were right after all.

Dad told me to be careful and to stay strong for Mom. At least the good thing coming up this weekend is Darla's first communion on Saturday, yay! I can't wait to film it! Then at the reception it'll be a nice backyard BBQ.

I really hope to talk to Mr. Akers today; I'm getting very nervous about our last week of school next week. Good thing is that there's no finals in my classes, just parties.

My brother and I are getting along alright again; it's an on-off thing since Mom died. Ricky's really upset about everything. Mother's Day was hard on me; I was very close to my mother, just as I am to Mr. Akers, in a sense...

Dad'll be here on June 18th. But I plan to celebrate Father's Day early by giving Mr. Akers a little card/letter - Mr. Akers has been my father figure for a whole year now, and I wanna celebrate it right.

But still, can't wait till school's out.